frm old blog~ (jan 12,2011, wednesday)

mse tu:

xtau la npe...aku cm xle trime die kne pikul tggjwb tu skg...mmg la bgs die blja sume tu dr skg tp aku tkt hubgn ni akn tjejas sbb hal2 cmni..

pasni mst da xle nk jmp cm dlu..ni pon da ckup ssh nk jmp..

aku xdpt jd cm cpl len...

ble2 ley g dating..tgk wyg..jln2...shoping....

x...aku??? dlm mp je la...

tp tu sume aku da tau n try to accept j..but now, stuation hve changed..

aku ttekan sgt2...aku cbe sdaye upaye nk phm die tp ntah la..

npe aku sdeh sgt???skt ati sgt ble die tpkse broke his promise 2 me bout hanging out n watch movie 2 even wif d strong reason.............

aku ni kjam sgt ke???

aku mmg xnk bebankan die...

tp, knp aku kne de prasaan mcm ni?????

smlmn aku mnanges n mnanges.....

4 wt reason pon aku xtau....

aku sygkn die...sgt3 syg....

aku xnk hlg die tp aku xtau npe

mkin aku syg die mkin skt aku rse...

kdg2 tfikir nk bla je....

g jauh2 dr sume owg yg aku knl...

idop ngn mama aku je...

sbb tu aku bniat nk g uk bsides aku nk cr kje n kmpul wet byk2 n change my lifestyle,

aku dpt bz kn dri utk elak bnde2 cmni...

skg ni sume bnde nk wet..

n psl wet gak r hubgn ni renggang...

nk jmp pon ssh...skg ni die kne tggung d whole fmly...

lg la aku kne mngalah..

aku ni bkn sesape pon..not deserve 4 any special treat pon..

tp atleast aku tau he's responsible 2 his fmly..

so, i hve 2 be proud of him...

aku nk mle idop bru..

idop sdri..means bukn la xplukan sesape..

but then, aku nk bdikari cm dlu...

dlu aku ag kuat dr skg nih...

aku tau aku ley lalui sume tu sbb aku pnh laluinye...

so, aku da nekad...aku kne ubah sumenye....

- aku xnk bgntung kt die lg either sbsr2 o skecik2 matter..

aku nk stle sdri if got any problem...

aku nk sorok prasaan aku smp xde spe tau pe sbnye yg aku rse..

aku xnk owg ksian kt aku...

aku nk improve evvrytg bout myself..

aku kne bese kn sume ni sbb aku tau aku n mama depending each other..

so, i dun nd any 1 else 2 help me out of erytg...

but, i hve 2 get my fren's spprt without telling them anytg...

gdluck 4 me...hope aku kuat nk lalui sume ni....

ayah, fara rindu kn ayh... ='(

b...rndu mse2 kite n i'l appreciate evrytg u hve done 4 me...

love u soo muchh!

now: everythg's run smoothly n we still 2gether n i already accept evrytg abt u...

happy sgt2 skg....n d more days i wif him....d more i love him... =)